Think about it...Denial or Full Embracement?

I just came to a state that I think I need to vent this out. Yes, this is gonna be another posting that sounds like I'm only talking to myself, self absorbed yes. But since you are here, try to hear me out ok?please...you're a friend.

It always occurred to me that there are some things in life, they tend to be in the extremely unfair state. Yes, I'm bloody sure you have this thing going on in you as well yes? And thus, with this unfair taste in our mouths going on, it can produce problems. Mental, psychological, sanity problems. Oh, of course this could come down argumentative for everybody...in other words, some people would disaggree that for example... tyres should be square, why is it circular (I'm just being rhetorical people, just giving a blind example...not really saying that there are people out there saying tyres are suppose to be square...are there?). Now, I know that in some cases I am blessed and lucky. And of course I have problems too, everybody has them right? Then comes the question of, can it be solved? can it be countermeasured? can it be faced head on? can it ever be brought up?Would there be a method involved?

Now, to be going through that process of determining whether it could be solved or not could take time. And it always can't be really defined or given any time frame. Because, usually it depends on the magnitude of the predicament (or shit) you're facing. The bigger the problem, usually it takes more time to think about solving it. Some people could take like one second then poops out the solution. Some problem or some people could take minutes, hours, days, months and even years (we're talking basic time constraint here). So for those who are lucky enough to be able to define their time needed to solve their problems are just lucky bastards. Right? Because time needed has been defined, technically you have reached the finish line of solving the problem yes?

Now look beyond that..what if you will never cross that finish line? That finish line is perhaps a dot to you, or heck its just one of the black spots you eye produce should you have an eyesight problem(I think they're called floaters). There are times in problem solving you will realise that if it doesn't get solved EVER, you will come to a need of either two:

DENIAL

or

FULL EMBRACEMENT

Which do you choose? Which do you think has better merits that would lead you to a form of acceptance of the problem that was never solved?? Because should you not choose, dilemma starts to strike.It feels now like you cannot determine what's right for you. What seems to be the one that could help you make sense out of everything? You gotta be careful now, because to be honest either one seems to be a right solution but what about the thing called demerits? Y'see, either one of them has this, and yes both of them could cause more hurt, more problems and also make you look so ....dumb schmuck.

For example, let's tackle the word denial. Let's say we end up choosing denial. Denial is a new definition of ignorance. You choose to say something didn't happened or you choose not to reject your problem couldn't be solved or that the problem never happened. Either way, this is denial. The rejection of the reality, the rejection of your failure to solve your problem. So then you live your life just ignoring or just telling yourself that the problem never happened. The problem never even knocked on your footsteps of your life. Everything is supposed to be fine and dandy.

But looking on,deep inside of you...subconsciously you realised you're a failure. You're just this one big walking failure. Someone or something in your head just keeps on laughing (this can't necessarily be you, it could be your worst nightmare, your childhood bully,your kindergarden teacher...whoever) with the fact that you have lost. You just gave up on the problem that could be your worst nightmare. Your deepest darkest fears. Ok,wake up!! What I'm trying to say here is: denial can take its toll on your mental capacity to handle this problem. It could somehow or rather take its toll on your mental lifespan and one day you could end up being a vegetable...say the day after you realise "I'm living in denial all this while!"? (I'm not a doctor, a psychologist whatever, I'm just being pestimistic, but it has some truth to a certain degree ok?)

And so next we have FULL EMBRACEMENT. Yes, embracing the fact that you can't solved the problem. It has registered in your thick skull saying "I accept the fact that I am a failure in solving this shit". Yes, you're fully aware you're just incapable of solving this problem, even telling everyone you know " I can't solve this..I am THAT person, I can't solve this!"

My question now: do you think ending up with this, there is no toll taken on you whatsoever? What about the destruction it has caused on your massive ego? Do you realised by saying this you have also decreased your mental capability of psyching yourself(give yourself semangat laa I mean)? You're suppose to be able to psych yourself in doing something new or something important. Now by doing this FULL EMBRACEMENT, you have to keep telling yourself that you have just subconciously degrade yourself....willingly. I'm serious! You just accepted the fact you incapable when perhaps you should!!! Is this a method for you?

Is either one a method for any of us? Should it be a method at all? Should it be labelled as a bad move altogether and suggest ourselves a new solution instead?

I have no answer to this. Perhaps you do. Perhaps there are people out there who has found the answer to my question. Perhaps maybe there are some of you living this in a balance, living it so people could nobody see that you are actually doing both. Its unrealistic, its weird I know. But trust me...its possible. Still, I don't know if that's the answer to this posting I just hope it could actually bring in some sense in you and realise that how solving holds a huge amount of precedence in life. You have to take control or else not solving could just take control of your life. Letting you living in pain regardless of how you handle that failure. Thanks for reading guys. Feel free to feedback ok?

OI Sasha!Dah gila ke????