CAMNE NAK SIMPAN DUIT GINI????

Great......

With short on cash and less than 3 months to spare (and the need to buy the plane tickets in like...now) how the heck am I gonna save money???

But you might be asking,why I should go to this concert? Well,watch this video...



ARRGHHHH!! DILEMMA!!!!!!!!

Derma lah ke Tabung untuk Sasha pergi tengok Lamb Of God di Jakarta ye? right...

Customer Service...101

I just recently experienced a few customer service mishaps recently...one at a Burger King dessert stall, and 2 more occasions at 2 different Maybank branches and it got me thinking about..our beloved customer service. I can't really say that I'm an expert in knowing what a customer want or need but I guess what I'm trying to convey here are just simple basic knowledge that all customer service attendants must know.

Tip #1:
1) Never.....ever be rude to your customers.
Can you just realize no matter how picky or how mah fan your customer is, you have no right whatsoever to be rude to your customers? I don't care if we shout at you, we hentam the table or just call you plain stupid. You have no right to be rude. Yes, you are allowed to defend yourself should you are not stupid but in a civilized manner. Once you are able to portray yourself as somebody who is civilized, believe me customers will at least tone down a little and he/she will realize you are somebody who they could talk to, thus really telling you what their real problems are. Isn't this what you'd really want?

2) Never...ever laugh when customers are disgruntled.
The last thing a customer needs to see or hear when they are having a bad day because of you is to see you laugh. Seriously, the service is fcuking slow, people are hungry/thirsty/dying and you in the middle of nowhere got the cheek to laugh with your friends. Did you go through basic training? Or did you just lose perfect common sense? I mean come on, the customers are your bosses people. The least you could do is show respect and this is how you do it? Where do you think your pay is coming from ?

3) Always show that you are serious about giving service to your customers..if you can't, quit damn it.
Wanna know what makes people come back to you? Good services. Treat your customers like they are kings and queens. When you treat them like they are important, they will come back to you. And that's how you make business. Repetitive business. And that's where the money really comes in. We, the customers DO NOT need your half-hearted passion working in this business. We, the customers DO NOT need to be treated like any other sub-human beings. We just want to be important, because we the customers are giving you our good money and here we are being treated like shit. And when people complain, you get angry. No seriously, if you hate the nature of the job...fucking QUIT. The last thing the company that's hiring you need is an employee like you.

You gotta realize that the benefits come to you i.e. good tipping/recognition if you do a good job. You wanna know how to treat customers like they are important? SMILE.

If you compare the customer services here and then compare to the ones in other country(the one we should match up: JAPAN)...it saddens me lah. Wanna know why? Places like 7-11 are even friendlier compare to the ones I've recently experienced. What is it about our culture that has shaped our customer services in such a way....that it is so freaking embarrassing to be called a Malaysian service?

I've been in the customer service industry before i.e. Food and Beverage, worked in T.G.I. Fridays...yes, our customers can be annoying. They can be demanding. But, with proper management, training and also with some proper manners taught since primary school I believe we can be as successful as any other people can.

Who am I to judge, but hey...this is my blog. Tak setuju, sudah. Correct or not?

I Want One!!

Tabung untuk me getting a Nokia N85 is open for donation...sila derma sekarang!!! No account bank,sms aku..nanti bagi..

Kemaruk siii....

Post Writer's Block Entry

I admit, I haven't been writing in a while is due to being blank everytime I open the compose page. I have quite a number of pictures that I wanted to share, there are a few things I shoud've done but didn't (one is...wishing everyone who reads this blog a Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin for all my wrong-doings and sayings)....but anyways, *DELETED FOR OBVIOUS REASONS*

Well anyways, I just went to Japan recently, for a new product presentation..the timing was perfect because :

1) We were staying in Shibuya, where the city is like New York they say, it never sleeps. Just that its Japanese.

2)It was Halloween!! Everybody was dressing up, people parading their costumes and going to waterholes to enjoy themselves. I managed to snap a few shots of them...

I admire the people there. Bands were allowed to do public performance every week, at the side of the road(look at first picture). I took quite a few videos of them playing and these people are quite good. I know there are some places where we could do it here in Malaysia...I guess I'm frustrated that its not that easy to do it though. There in Japan, you could still perform with an old drum set and people would donate some money after a performance.hmm...

Ooh...and not to forget...my ultimate excitement in Shibuya...THIS:

And I straight away went to level 4...I found my Dream Theater's Chaos In Motion DVD and also Lamb Of God's Walk With Me In Hell DVD. 4 pieces of DVD to layan...

*DELETED AS WELL*

And don't forget people: On the 6th of December, Selangor and Sarawak cuti.......

The Old Surpasses The New?

It came to my mind the other day when I saw one of my Japanese boss using an old analog oscilloscope(its what we use to measure signals) to investigate a problem we are facing at work, instead of a RM10k digital oscilloscope..... I noticed that the old oscilloscope had capabilities to zoom in to the signal in ways that I couldn't imagine! And I realised, that perhaps there is a reason why people out there today prefer analog to digital, why people prefer using the single effect pedals that multi effects (okay,less relevant but...actually there is lah), why tapes are old record players have better sound qualities than CDs.

There's the question of sampling rate yes? Sampling is one of the processes involved in converting analog to digital. To briefly explain, lets say you have a sinusoidal wave, with a frequency of 1 Hz.(1 Hz is equivalent of one full cycle in one second). You sample it at the rate of 2Hz sampling rate, that means at half a cycle, it samples the value of the waveform..or in other words, determine the value of the waveform at the time. What about during the rest of the cycle, or in between the sampling rates, what happens to the data? Exactly my point, we lose some of the real deal people. We sacrifice some points of the matter in order to achieve our goal easily.Or in the digital world, to create a fast easier solution, by eliminating the "supposed-to-be" redundancy. But my question now is, can we really eliminate them?

I see the relativity of this in our lives. We the younger generations now rely a little too much on new technology in order to achieve our goals, sometimes (maybe a little too much) that we lose sight on maybe what's important to us. We discard what we thought is irrelevant, but maybe..just maybe it could be a use to us perhaps even save us?

You could try and see the scenario of moral values perhaps? How people nowadays take the "shortcut" through the moral value aspect for a bigger gain, seeing only the bigger picture but what about the small little detail that could affect us all?Or maybe your children?Or even our country? The small little detail that could maybe increase our quality of life, our conscience, our mental health maybe. Who knows.

I'm just rambling, I just wanted to write this out because it came to my head when I was looking at my Jap boss troubleshooting at work and realised how the old, could surpass the new.

So Many Albums To Buy!!!

Heithfield. Ulrich. Hammett. Trujilo. New Album....how?

Ken said its awesome...hmmm...looks like I have to buy it in order to really find out.

METALLICA - Death Magnetic.....new album weh!!

I'm Definitely Buying Trivium's New Album!!

I just saw this video on blabbermouth.net just now. Definitely buying the new album next month. This and the new Dream Theater DVD.

TRIVIUM - DOWN FROM THE SKY


"Like light to flies..."

Malaysia Boleh, Boleh,Boleh?

I was at Sunway Pyramid the other day and I ran into a small fair about Malaysia Book Of Records. I was bored, so I looked around and saw all the 'achievements' we proud Malaysians have done so far...all I could say, I ended up speechless and decided to take some photos:

I think the last picture just made me slap my head...teddy bears????

And for the Largest Dinner Gathering...:-/

Maybe I'm not a good sport, maybe I just have higher expectations...but come on...

p/s:don't trust a fart...

Funny - "Reporting On Weed"

This is another funny video that my dad sent to me through email and I managed to find it on Youtube. Funny as hell, make sure you put on your speakers or headphones....



"I know exactly where we are....where the f*ck are we....brainnsss!!" - Incubus

Funny Ad

These are funny Ads....:D

I laughed till my tears came out..while watching them in the office(kantoi).

Funniest ads ever, no doubt.

Music Video of the Day

This is my music video of the day...I was suddenly listening to the album in the car today and I realized I want to share with my blog readers...

The album: Incubus's S.C.I.E.N.C.E

I love Incubus in this era..the dreadlock, the harder rocking feel, awesome grooves, awesome songs...




Incubus Lyrics
A Certain Shade Of Green Lyrics

"I Am Above The Law" sez the Ignorant Pricks

Big, luxurious, overly priced cars with the "lambang-ed" lincense plates, you know the ones with that sez "Hakim Makamah" or "Pegawai kerajaan" or " Kamek nang kaya benar,kereta kitak mek boleh beli sekelip mata tauk sik",tinted so dark you can't see crap who the driver is or what the heck he/she is doing inside...How the heck do these guys get away from JPJ? I always wonder that if they ever get caught in a road block, do the officers just let them through coz they have these lambang on their license plate, or do they get pulled over and also get told to take the tints off?

If they get the latter, then its fine. These guys are just a bunch of pricks who know nothing about the law in Malaysia and just wanted to be known as someone who has so-called "power". But, what if they don't get pulled over? That the officers just let them through or to be more specific, officers just 'close one eye' on them?

I have heard of stories that if you have these lambang i.e. judge,kementerian people (somebody dgn pangkat la)....you don't get pulled over. They just let them through. My question is: who the heck are they to be above the law? Who are they so that they can do whatever they want on the streets or anywhere in this country? If its like Raja or Sultan themselves, maybe yes for protection's sake maybe (however we could still debate about this). But what about these ridiculous people like lawyers, pangkat2 yang tak berkenaan dgn really high level people....who the heck are you man??Dah la pandu macam hampeh.

Argghh...just thinking about them just makes me hate them more. Dah le bulan puasa.Ok,signing out. Keja keja keja!!

Dah beli kuih raya dah?

A Typical Moment In The Office

Here's a typical scene in the office between me and my superior (manager lah)...

F: I see that you haven't completed your evaluation...

Me: Yea, we're currently investigating quite a number of problems right now.

F: I need you to give me a date when you can solve these problems...

Me: Err...2 days if no other problem arises...

F: Ok, please keep in mind that problem A is a top priority and must be solved...

Then the conversation continued in my head:

Me: F, shove it up your arse....

F: Ok.

P/S:This is just a perversion of the truth of what happened yesterday.

Updated my videos...

I've updated the collection of videos of my performance at the farewell dinner...you can click here.

Lan, never say NO!...hehehehehehe...kidding...:D

Apa2 pun,suara ko still mantap...\m/

Poetry - Can We Balance It All?

Can we balance it all?
To a point of equal weight of each side of the scale?
Is it true that there is enough objects to put on
That we can somehow not make a mess so it would balance on?

It may seem ridiculous (that I want it that way)
Of my attempts of balancing
Tell me,when we do know it will balance equally
As I put the weights equally on both sides

I do believe its in our hands
We are the ones who are to balance this
No one else would
Or could
As we ourselves are the creator of the weights
That balances the scale of our lives


My choice
My judgement
My being
My entity
Is what I can be
The scale's equilibrium state




p/s:I can't find a picture of a balanced scale to beautify this poem. But I gueess you'd know I would put a balanced one if I could.:D

Evolution in music?

I was just half way watching Slipknot's new single Psychosocial on Youtube, and I just had the urge to rant about music evolution. To be more specific, a band's musical orientation evolution over time.

First of all,

WHAT HAPPENED TO PURE ANGER COREY?

If you compare to the old days of the year 2000, Slipknot had the anger, the madness in their songs. Such angst, such hatred,such energy especially in the vocals. Now, I suppose being rich and successful, you just had to evolve into something more..marketable? I don't know if they realise this but being the old them is when the band really had the edge in my opinion. Why the lame rapping(keyword:lame)? Ok, maybe some cool riffs here and there but,but.....nevermind. I just totally disagree where Slipknot is heading. This is getting mainstream, nu-metal rapping with just some(not all) mediocre riffs, and of course not to forget the half hearted screaming. No, to me this is not screaming. This is not Corey Taylor's screaming.

I just wanna express I miss the old Slipknot. I miss the crazy 9 men on stage doing all sort of stuffs, bringing out the great recipe of a live performance. I know the will deliver a hell of a show where ever and whenever they perform, just saddened by the quality in the new music they produced.

Here's the video btw...* sigh *


"Keeping myself alive, through your empathy!!!" -Slipknot

Videos!!!

Here are some of the videos for the performance that night..:D
The first video is a highlight!!!








Sorry guys that I haven't been posting lately...bulan puasa kan?anyways, to all of my Muslim friends who are reading this, Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan!

Details will be printed here..when I have the drive...seriously, I don't have the time to do it..it'll be long. Sleepy now by the way, see ya !!

Picture Rant - Farewell Dinner Performance

Our company held a farewell dinner for one of our japanese bosses, so me and a bunch of friends...volunteered(?) to perform for the dinner. I'll write about the show later...coz most of the good pictures and videos are not with me now. Now, I just put on the preview,taken with my trusty handphone camera:

Bassman before the show

Our vocalist, fooling around on drums...AWESOME NIJE!

Me,Razmil,Nije,Idzham and Lan

Ujang-->Sony's guitar hero...

Our head of division giving a speech

SHOW AND TELL - CCTV Business

Hi guys..

I just wanted to let you know that actually I'm sort of like an sales agent/middle man for my uncle, where he sells all sorts of CCTV and small spy stuff...he has like a whole page of his CCTV stuff here
though there are some gadgets he doesn't display/promote however I'd be promoting them here.

So therefore there will be a new category for my posting, CCTV Promotional Stuff. If you do know anyone looking for CCTV, let me know OK? I can guarantee we offer the best pricing for them. How can we have the best pricing? Because we import them directly from factory, that's why. And those people who sells them around KL are like marking 'em up after going through a few layers of middle man. Us? We're the first one. And you can bet its the best price and also: the best opportunity for you to start your own CCTV business perhaps? Who knows.

I'm a middle man too but a small time, just someone who is expanding my uncle's network. I'd be doing some of the things that he's not(delivery sense I mean), so let me know if you do need any CCTV OK?

Rant - Challenges

Life is full of challenges yes? If life is in existance with the absences of challenge, then perhaps it is no life at all. But ironically all of us do crave for a life with minimal or maybe no challenge at all. Carefree, able to do things without any repurcussions or impact whatsoever, all things in life just literally become easy.

Ok, wake up.

We cannot let ourselves wanting such a life can we? I do believe that in life we need that challenge to keep us going, to keep us literally alive. A human without a vision, without predicament is just probably somebody who has lost touch with mother earth, perhaps just hollow inside.

We all do have life challenges, and it could range from the biggest problem that someone could get from our universe or it could be just trivial matters, and with the way we handle these challenges determines whether we could maintain our sanity or go bonkers. I have my own trivial challenges... I really do. And these are just some of the trivial challenges that I face every single working day(weekends may not apply).

1) Leaving for work on time.
You guessed it, its being punctual about leaving the house in order to make it to the clock-in machine at work. It's my first challenge of the day. Now, in order to be on time I have to make sure whatever I do in the morning doesn't occupy me be late. Among the things that would delay me: my aunt's cat, waiting in front of the door to go out while knowing that I'm leaving the house. We don't let her out of the house see, and she waits for me to open the door so she could go out for a while, even for a minute. If she does slipped pass me by when I open the door, there's gonna be chasing around for me..and I'd be late!

2)Avoiding Traffic Jam
Every KL citizen's nightmare. Traffic jam. I have to admit I have stopped enduring traffic jams when the enlarged the Bangi exit. So the only challenge that I could meet is the traffic jam at the North South highway...though this only bears low probability, since I'm heading towards Seremban.

3)Choosing what to eat for breakfast
Damn straight...being a factory worker, you have the same old cafeteria every single F ing day. Its either fried rice with fried chicken, or maybe nasi campur or maybe even wantan mee. But this is one of those challenges in my daily life where it becomes very dull yet still a challenge to go through every day. Why? You still gotta eat to get the day moving. And we factory workers are not spoiled for choices...believe you me.

4)What to say in my daily report meetings
We who work in a japanese company are forced (yes, forced) to tell our progress in front of everyone in the department. There are times where we are overwhelmed with work, which is fine. But everyone knows, there are times of the year where you don't have any work to do, what do you say? This is one of my challenges my friend. Even when there is work, you have to think about what to say, you gotta make sure the things you say are right or not...someone's gonna be pissed...

5)Work
Enough said.

6)"Do I get to go back early?"
I always have to face the challenge of whether I get to go back early because being in a Japanese company, going back on time is not a norm. And going back late at least one hour feels like going back on time. When you do want to go back on time, you gotta say this to your boss :" Boss, I'm going back early today" which means you're going back on the dot. Not earlier than expected.

7) "If I eat this...."
One more challenge of my daily life is to maintain my weight(yes, I do not want to be obese, or boroi). I always have to think about how my daily diet is suppose to be, and my trick now is to have only one heavy meal a day the rest of them are just snacks. And there times when gluttony can overwhelm you especially when the cafeteria suprises everyone with good food (right..). But yes, this is also a challenge to me because I always have to keep dieting in mind. And I can't recall the last time I went to the gym.hmm...

Ok, enough ranting...gotta work. Thanks for reading!

"All you've forsaken and all that you've done so I can live on this undying dream" - D.T.

Paintball!!!!

No pain was endured when taking this picture...

Sharpshooters

The game of pain

Awesome day Man...we whooped their asses didn't we?

Poetry-Awakening

I realised I haven't posted any poetry in this blog...yes, I do write poetry sometimes. But it all comes down to being inspired and how I feel etc. Without emotions it'll probably sound superficial...so yes, I have found a new inspiration, it got me composing one and I would like to share it with you guys.

It's called Awakening

Rest within our restless hearts
Thoughts of the thoughtless ones
Deceiving ourselves to the serenity of the uncalculated error
Moving forward with the feeling of unsure

Oh have thou forsaken o darkness
It’s been long forgotten, my place before thee
Scent of it all just lingers away forever
To the deepest darkest of sight with flight
When I embraced you with gladness in mind

Now I hasten my footsteps, to the sunlight of the clear sky
Removed darkened skies it has
For dark has been my thoughts of late
For now I deny the grasp and spell of hate
I let go of thee, liberating myself as I set myself free
Live to the fullest, not bowing to thee,
O darkness of mine

I choose to see the light that has shone on me
I choose to be free, from the depths of the abyss of darkness
And I hope not to return
For the liberation of what is my soul
Need ever more is to awake from this darkness
And now I open my eyes
As I focus on what lies ahead
Promise to be always true
As of now, I am to be new
Forever

RANT - "Empowerment"

I have been observing people...yes I do and frankly I'm currently doing this as a part of a study that I'm currently pursuing...for free. For myself, no one else. Not for university, not for some lecturer, not for some funky hot chick. No. Just plainly for personal reasons. And just today it got me to want to write about something that I have noticed. OK, basically I have been trying to figure out some patterns surrounding the human behavior, especially social behavior. And this certain pattern is very interesting....I noticed everybody..and I do mean EVERYBODY...wants empowerment!

Yes, it's no breakthrough perhaps. Some of us just knew this at the back of their heads that everybody needs empowerment...whether it be in work, social standing or even self-esteem. But you do realize that this empowerment has become a pattern so common, so disguised that everybody has a piece of the process in almost everything that they do? And what bothers me a little is that it has become a way of life and so much now it has become an unhealthy way of life.

Empowerment; what is it actually? To enable or permit, its a process of enabling yourself to feel power, the ability to manipulate a certain aspect of things or matter. It is such a common definition and now we have not been able to see that this empowerment now has gone off the roof and out of control, society ourselves now has been affected so bad, so many questions has risen.

How has it become an unhealthy way of life? How has it affected us all that it now becomes a reason to worry?

Well, think about it. You empower yourself to ignite that self esteem. You reach this whole new level of confidence and loved it. You really do. Then feeling of no content starts to take over and overwhelms you, you become in needing more of this empowerment then what? You go for more until to the extent of letting go of your very fundamental basics of other people's feelings,moral values etc. Tolerance goes out the window, especially when you have reached this whole new you where you feel like the whole world is at the tip of your fingers.

I have seen people pursuing empowerment in their work, in their need to be known, in their need for the opposite sex to notice them and then.... having the ability to manipulate the opposite sex (haha, this is true), I have seen people pursue empowerment in their social standards, I have seen people pursue empowerment in their financial status, I have seen people pursuing empowerment in politics, empowerment in how they look,empowerment in communications...people, I could go on forever telling where I have seen people pursuing empowerment. Believe me, its like almost everywhere!

Now, I don't have any solutions whatsoever. However, I would like those who read this post think about this: has empowerment overwhelmed you? Has it taken over you that you seem to let go of a few values that you thought as sacred? Values you thought you have never ever thought of breaking? If you haven't, then congratulations. You are not too late in your process of realization. However, be honest and if somehow or rather down the line later after reading this post you finally realized that you have been overwhelmed by empowerment and in certain areas, you have seek too much...ask yourself, has it done any damage ? Have you finally realized that this is not who you really are?

I really don't see myself in a position to give any advice but only a share of personal experience. I always try my best to fix any damage I have done. I make sure what I do is sincere and try my best to overcome what damage has caused and fix things. And of course, never to let it happen again.

I assure you reader, I am just appalled with what I realized here today and feel obligated to shed a little light on this matter. Please forgive me if you find this boring. Thank you.


"I don't believe in the republican party or the democratic party...I just believe in parties.."

Fuck yeah.

Picture Rantings pt 2

Picture Rantings is back! More of some random photos I took lately (or has been kept till the right time)... Its symbolic

Things to look forward to in KL
Don't be like him...

Strike a pose Spotty...
The solution to this problem is obvious...A tribute to MM....

Happy Birthday Puaka!
Drinks endorsed by ASEAN!

RANT - What were you thinking boy??

Ok, the topic that I'm gonna discuss today is a little obscene but however I can't seem to stop thinking about it. The picture above was a grafitti written on one of the men's washroom cubicle. It bothered me the first time I saw it, and the second time I went to the same cubicle later that day I was just bothered enough to take the picture and decided to put it up on the blog and rant about it. I just have to!

Well, the grafitti says " Di situ buritmu, di situ juga batang ku"....in Malay language it means where ever your pussy's at, that's where my dick's gonna be....and the guy was proud enough to sign his name under the writings.

How did this grafitti bother me?

First and foremost...I can't seem to figure out what was his motive! Why? because its in the men's bathroom! No one enters there is ever gonna have pussy! 99% of the people who enters that cubicle only has a peanus! No matter how much the grafitti sounded like it was meant for the female species...no female is ever going to take a pee or shit there!! So who the heck is this guy talking to? How did he expect to get this message across?? Did he really hoped somehow or rather girls would enter the cubicle and realised there's a man willing to bring his peanus to any pussy? Or did he hope that one of his friends will read that grafitti and pass it on their female friends? What is the psychological reason really for this grafitti?

Unless....he was talking to the cleaning lady....WTF????All cleaning ladies here are makcik2 tua weh!!

But anyways, I managed to come to another assumption. He's probably Sarawakian, the word burit in Melayu Sarawak means ass, and he's probably saying "Where ever your ass is at, that's where my dick's gonna be" ....and yes, maybe the guy who wrote this..is GAY! He just arrived Bangi for like a week, couldn't really speak the local normal Malay dialect yet and realised he should just write it in in semi-Sarawakian dialect...OK,enough!

All right, I'm done with discussing about the reason why this guy wrote this. What do you think about what his motives were?

p/s:this is a true grafitti...

Think of your brain as a canister filled with ink....

"4 minutes to Warpner!"

Yes, I haven't been posting lately. Yes, I have been busy to the utmost extent. And yes, I kinda didn't have any idea what to write lately because I was pre-occupied...with something. Or some things. But anyways, here I am in the office on a Monday morning, early as anyone could be so I could clear some shit up...then I ended up blogging...happy to the fact that I'm using the wireless internet connection rather than the wired LAN where the IT department are complaining "you guys are using the international proxy and its jamming up our network!"...its actually because if you use the wired LAN and you're using the local proxy, the speed on the network is extremely disappointing and you have to connect yourself to the international one. Supposedly if too many people connect to it, it jams up.

I'm just wondering...if you set up a network for an international company to use...do you set it up for like only 10 people could use it? I mean, the speed of this network is awesomely fast and you can't accomodate like another two thousand people more?hmmm.

Anyways, had an awesome weekend.Hehehe,no Saj, I did not meet my end of the bargain but it sure was a right choice.haha. Met up with Elaine and Saj last weekend and this is one photo I took that nite.

I can't recognise you anymore Elaine!!!

Gotta work now damnnit!

See Me Jam: Stream Of Consciousness (Dream Theater Cover)

I suppose this is one of the video recordings I will cherish forever. Its been so long that I've wanted to record this, and finally it was realized today. This song is special to me because of a few reasons...one of them is because its the longest instrumental song I've ever played with a band and...most technical instrumental song I've ever researched.

I'll always treasure this...thanks to Halim (guitars/mastermind/DT Fanatic) and Usop (as usual, the prodigal drummer..you're a Godsend!)...I hope we'll still jam till we have grandkids..haha!

Please feel free to rate..thanks!Enjoy!!
p/s:we don't jam that often so...there are mistakes here and there...bear with us..:D

Yeah,we play Dream Theater....

Show and Tell : Julianne Tarroja

I discovered another talented female artist out there, but she's not local though,she originates from the Philippines...extremely talented and to be honest, in my own personal opinion she reminds me of our very own Sheila Majid...jazzy and soulful....extremely hypnotizing, and she plays the guitar very impressively...see her play the song
Grateful then you'll believe me.

Anyways, a colleague of mine introduced me to her. I don't really know how he got to find her but he did told me he waited the whole night to ....get the album.Right. Anyways, please don't be touchy on this? In our beloved country we don't get to expand our music selection to a wide extend ok? If its not because of "this" we would only be listening to Backside Boys singing repetitively on the radio. Give us (those who like good and rare music) a break.

Currently, I listen to her songs everyday, almost repetitively and I can't believe she's not famous here. And what are the chances to see her live?probably none. But at least my friends and the world know I love her and her new Grateful album(I think it was released last year)!
I still remember how the first song in her album Tulak Ng Bibig just blew me away with the jazzy and soulful feel. I'm posting one of her performance here, and the name of the song is Unsaid. Somehow or rather reflects my past history..right....but anyways, if you hear the album version its also very good.anyways,enjoy!

Keep it going Julianne!

Song lyrics | Unsaid lyrics

Think about it...Denial or Full Embracement?

I just came to a state that I think I need to vent this out. Yes, this is gonna be another posting that sounds like I'm only talking to myself, self absorbed yes. But since you are here, try to hear me out ok?please...you're a friend.

It always occurred to me that there are some things in life, they tend to be in the extremely unfair state. Yes, I'm bloody sure you have this thing going on in you as well yes? And thus, with this unfair taste in our mouths going on, it can produce problems. Mental, psychological, sanity problems. Oh, of course this could come down argumentative for everybody...in other words, some people would disaggree that for example... tyres should be square, why is it circular (I'm just being rhetorical people, just giving a blind example...not really saying that there are people out there saying tyres are suppose to be square...are there?). Now, I know that in some cases I am blessed and lucky. And of course I have problems too, everybody has them right? Then comes the question of, can it be solved? can it be countermeasured? can it be faced head on? can it ever be brought up?Would there be a method involved?

Now, to be going through that process of determining whether it could be solved or not could take time. And it always can't be really defined or given any time frame. Because, usually it depends on the magnitude of the predicament (or shit) you're facing. The bigger the problem, usually it takes more time to think about solving it. Some people could take like one second then poops out the solution. Some problem or some people could take minutes, hours, days, months and even years (we're talking basic time constraint here). So for those who are lucky enough to be able to define their time needed to solve their problems are just lucky bastards. Right? Because time needed has been defined, technically you have reached the finish line of solving the problem yes?

Now look beyond that..what if you will never cross that finish line? That finish line is perhaps a dot to you, or heck its just one of the black spots you eye produce should you have an eyesight problem(I think they're called floaters). There are times in problem solving you will realise that if it doesn't get solved EVER, you will come to a need of either two:

DENIAL

or

FULL EMBRACEMENT

Which do you choose? Which do you think has better merits that would lead you to a form of acceptance of the problem that was never solved?? Because should you not choose, dilemma starts to strike.It feels now like you cannot determine what's right for you. What seems to be the one that could help you make sense out of everything? You gotta be careful now, because to be honest either one seems to be a right solution but what about the thing called demerits? Y'see, either one of them has this, and yes both of them could cause more hurt, more problems and also make you look so ....dumb schmuck.

For example, let's tackle the word denial. Let's say we end up choosing denial. Denial is a new definition of ignorance. You choose to say something didn't happened or you choose not to reject your problem couldn't be solved or that the problem never happened. Either way, this is denial. The rejection of the reality, the rejection of your failure to solve your problem. So then you live your life just ignoring or just telling yourself that the problem never happened. The problem never even knocked on your footsteps of your life. Everything is supposed to be fine and dandy.

But looking on,deep inside of you...subconsciously you realised you're a failure. You're just this one big walking failure. Someone or something in your head just keeps on laughing (this can't necessarily be you, it could be your worst nightmare, your childhood bully,your kindergarden teacher...whoever) with the fact that you have lost. You just gave up on the problem that could be your worst nightmare. Your deepest darkest fears. Ok,wake up!! What I'm trying to say here is: denial can take its toll on your mental capacity to handle this problem. It could somehow or rather take its toll on your mental lifespan and one day you could end up being a vegetable...say the day after you realise "I'm living in denial all this while!"? (I'm not a doctor, a psychologist whatever, I'm just being pestimistic, but it has some truth to a certain degree ok?)

And so next we have FULL EMBRACEMENT. Yes, embracing the fact that you can't solved the problem. It has registered in your thick skull saying "I accept the fact that I am a failure in solving this shit". Yes, you're fully aware you're just incapable of solving this problem, even telling everyone you know " I can't solve this..I am THAT person, I can't solve this!"

My question now: do you think ending up with this, there is no toll taken on you whatsoever? What about the destruction it has caused on your massive ego? Do you realised by saying this you have also decreased your mental capability of psyching yourself(give yourself semangat laa I mean)? You're suppose to be able to psych yourself in doing something new or something important. Now by doing this FULL EMBRACEMENT, you have to keep telling yourself that you have just subconciously degrade yourself....willingly. I'm serious! You just accepted the fact you incapable when perhaps you should!!! Is this a method for you?

Is either one a method for any of us? Should it be a method at all? Should it be labelled as a bad move altogether and suggest ourselves a new solution instead?

I have no answer to this. Perhaps you do. Perhaps there are people out there who has found the answer to my question. Perhaps maybe there are some of you living this in a balance, living it so people could nobody see that you are actually doing both. Its unrealistic, its weird I know. But trust me...its possible. Still, I don't know if that's the answer to this posting I just hope it could actually bring in some sense in you and realise that how solving holds a huge amount of precedence in life. You have to take control or else not solving could just take control of your life. Letting you living in pain regardless of how you handle that failure. Thanks for reading guys. Feel free to feedback ok?

OI Sasha!Dah gila ke????

We Who Love Being Middle Class Citizens

I lied. Honestly, I lied. I love being in the middle class. Of course without this debt around me but nevertheless being middle class makes me happy. I don't mind being middle class, in fact its a far more of a relieve than being in the state that you are,at least until a year from now my fellow "ex-friends"....I know, there's a chance you'd be filthy rich beyond your wildest dreams, being called the ultra rich, I don't care. I have a piece of my mind to let out here and so be it.

Deep inside me I somehow or rather knew I was being a two faced ass hole, but then again I was really curious how the fuck did you guys (oh, I'm sorry...right now,only one of you is driving the big car. The rest of you are just still slaves,SLAVES!!!) get to be so rich. Supposed, SUPPOSEDLY spending money like it was nobody's business. But I'm glad I got to see what is really going on.... You guys are just 'up to your neck' in debt, and you're asking me to join you... Now that's why you can't even pay for my teh-o-ais-limau can't ya?Now tell me, who is really the two faced ass hole now ? But you know what, you can't blame me for being curious ok?All the curiosity came from your tactics, all came from your ulterior motive of being nice and showing off. And I've beaten you guys to it, you lost. So don't fucking blame me now y'hear? Win some lose some. Move on.

Well, I've made my decision. I know now what you guys are really doing, and I've chosen which path I want to walk on. Why I chose this path is I do not want to be the one responsible for persuading my other friends departing from a very huge amount of money. That leading to a lot of whole other problems should I did not 'take care' of them. Ah long, being bankcrupt, family denouncement...and lots more. But honestly, seriously how the hell do you balance the decision of departing with that amount of money with just this statement: "We will take care of you".And I only know you guys for how long to bet on this two-faced-no- foundation statement?No, my answer is a firm NO. Do not try to persuade me on this anymore. I'm done, I'm through. I do not wish to hang out with you anymore, as I will always be a potential target.And no, I do not need to be in that state to hang out with friends. Friends are suppose to make you feel comfortable, place you look for companion. Not SLAVES, not having a bull's eye on your back, not being a two faced bastard. I'm glad, because I realise I'm the one who is truly free. Not you. Unless of course...you made it in your objectives lah. Anyways, since its still legal in the eyes of the law, I wish you all the best, good luck and just stay away from me. Its still a free world so that's why I never mentioned your entity,your brand name etc....every human has the ability to think for themselves so that's why I ain't gonna take away your bread and butter. Good luck.

You do realise you are the building block of this? Bila mau independent?

I just realised this post is making me sound 'self-absorbed' as described by someone(uhuh), but my friends would know what I'm talking about (as usual). Just bear with me ok? I try my best not to sound too self-absorbed but I suppose that's the nature of blogs. Come back and read some more ok?I'll post more stuff soon.

Infinite Hate covering Creeping Death..Metallica cover

This was just up, another rendition of us doing Metallica's Creeping Death. Playing in normal E, and with Usop this time.There were a few mistakes of the lyrics here and there...but other than that...I think it was ok...ooh, Wai San did the video editing and effects this time so it looked really good(she does freelancing...if you're looking for free lance video editing let me know...drop an email).hehe...enjoy guys!\m/



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Forgive me for I am experiencing a change in my mental state...and thus why I haven't posted for a while. I've been testing myself how long I could hold myself back from returning into this current psychological state and it has been 109 days. Its a psychological state change from Lay Low to Big Things Poppin'.

( Big Things Poppin' by T.I. is playing on my iTunes now)

I guess my friends know what the heck is going on with me, so I suppose I'm gonna let it be kinda shady now. I ain't gonna write what were the things I really did but perhaps you can figure it out by yourself. Well, for one reason it always has been taboo at where I work, but I suppose its the town where the factory is located is the reason why(this might sound a little shallow,forgive me).Why I say this is because it has never been taboo at certain offices located outside of Bangi...more specifically: white man company.It saddens me people....but however, if you are in the know then you are in the know. If you're not...that means I purposely let it be in vague so you wouldn't know and just so you won't spread rumours like a cheeky little girl.:P

Anyways,I got some pics I wanna share with you guys...I've been meaning to share this for quite a while...

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"Look into my eyes and tell me what it is you see..."